...puzzle...

hmm..okey...1 week to go..for final..ishk..and i haven't start studing...fuck...why am i sooo lazy...

grr...cakap berapi2..mok pass smua, mok dpt HD, tapi effort nya xda...*idiot*...i admit that baaa...huh..its not that i dont want to..but everything that i read, i cant remember...ohwhyohwhy...god..please help me...i really want to study..like now..i really want to..but here i am, blogging,online, n wasting my time....grrr..im soo pissed off with myself..i really want to change..but the spirit of laziness are sooo thick in my body..hmm...i keep on thinking what i want to do for holidays..such a waste of time...i know..and i notice that...pffttttt....damn..plus..this few weeks i cant sleep well, and every time i wake up, i don't have energy, and every part of my body are painfull...hmm...oh..i really hate myself..like sooo much...(LOL...and the song im listening currently keep on saying coz I'm still breathing..)apakah maksud nya..ish3...hehe..hmmm..and i keep on waiting for my business law lecturer mail...coz' last week he say he will combine class..but still, there's no info from him..hmm..ryn..ryn..u really really really need help..hmm...and the most hated part that i hate bout myself..i keep on thinking all those shyt..grhhh...y should i keep on thinking something that have nothing to do with me..and i cant get rid of it...as i've try my best not to think or remember...this thing keep on bothering me..n yeah..i really didn't understand the game..or can i say unsolved puzzle..???haih baaa....kenak daktok bah...feel like crying...but there's no reason why i should waste my tears for something useless and i don't even know the reason..N most importantly...this most hated person that keep on bothering my mind..urghh..i DON'T know u bah..!!

keyh...i should stop before i keep on nagging..;p

bye2..

till the next post..which probably after my final exam..

hugsnkisses..

_end_

mlss...sgttt mlsss..OKEY..!!

okey...assigment da siap...smua dah...ok...tetapi..!!!

study blom lagi..

why..??

because i've been wasting my time, watch movies...buat2 macam dah holiday..ishk...

bila nak berubah,..?

macam mana nak maju..??

klau perangai masih macam ni..

hmmm..ok...what should i do now..??

ok..the answer is very obvious..since final is just around the corner...about..19 days...times fly rite..

im going to finish my first sem,first yr degree...which is soooo fucking tired....i wonder how can i survive..this is only the first sem,first yr..hmm...degree life..what can i aspect right..??enjoy..??lol..i hardly enjoy my life now...which i think that i lost my LIFE...my everything..but...i'll nvr ever give up..:)

this is what i need to sacrifice for my future....and this is the best thing that i need now..someone had ask/told me...

do you want to enjoy just during your teenager life,and life a live in darkness fo the rest of ur life later,which u cant enjoy anymore..??

or do you want to sacrifice only 4 years of your life,and enjoy the rest of your life..?

(which means, sacrifice 4 years of taking degree,and enjoy my beautiful life in future,with good job,carrear,life and so on)

see..of course i rather sacrife 4 years studing...once i get good job..then i'll enjoy my life...i dont want to enjoy now and end my life being a useless person in future just because i want to enjoy..:)

thx for that question...i realise that whats important now, is my degree...which will help me to enjoy my life later..^^

ok...!!..

mission.:

ryn..!!

u nid to study, study, STUDY, STUDY ,STUDY..!!

Gambateh..!!

blablabla

1st of all..
management assignment is KILLING me..!!
second..
this feeling is killing me softly n slowly..like HELL
third....

dear,the feeling is gone...

fourth..
i like him..but....he nvr noe..
fifth...
i cant stand anymore...i nid help...
lastly...
im stupid..:'(

*Flirt mode on*

lol....i likeeee the title..heheh....ohmyohmy...how can i take my eyes from him..urgh..by juz looking at him, it makes me excited..lol....i noe..stupid rite..i dun even noe him...and worst part iss.....how if he hv gf dy..uwaaaa..LOL....seriously...i think i will have broken heart..hehe...funny...yeah...today..B.I.S presentation..it was totally sux..but dun care...cuz wat past is past rite...n thx to*him* for making my day..^^oh god help meeee....im soooo excited now....by juz looking at him..am i crazy..???am i dreaming..hahaha..ugh...enough ryn..enough...ehem2..hehe...haiz...urghhh....dreaming all the time...i noe..i sound crazy in diz post...i AM CRAZY now..!!crazy bout him..^^

i nid u..:(

i dont nid all those hugs n kisses..
i dont nid ur apologies,
i dont nid ur sms 24/7,
i dont nid ur money,
i dont nid a gift...
wat i wan is YOU...
i wan u to at least noe wat i wan..
i wan u to be by my side..
i wan u to call me even for ony a minute...
is it dat hard for u to noe me..??
to understand wat i wan..??
u say dat u noe me well..
but.....
it doesn't seems like u noe me...
when im upset,or nid u to comfort me..u nvr did...
u'll ony say sry..sry..sry...all the time...
im sick wif it..
i dun wan it..
wat i wan is u to comfort me...
the wost part is..
when u pretend like nthg happen..

i hate it..!!

i HATE it...!!

i dun noe till when can i stand..
till when can i hold it..
at one moment...
i really wan to end it..
but i cant..
i dun hv the courage...
i dun wan to hurt u..
but hv u ever think bout me..??
wat shud i do...
my heart r bleeding badly..
n u nvr try to cure it..
i cant stand it anymore..
it's killing me..!!!

shop..^^

im hepiiii.. i bought new dress n new handbag..ohmyohmy..lol...yeay....n i get the handbag dat i really really want...it's xoxo..yeah baby...i likeeee...lol....im soo hepi...n guess wat...only shopping make my day....coz..my emotion are not stable for diz past few days..hormone maybe..LOL...but..yeay...buying those things make my day...even through im broke now..i dun care..as long as im hapi bck..^^