i hate my life...its sux

ermmm....feel like blogging in my own laguage..sry for my readers dat cant understand..:)

emmm..marek ku klua ngan dak kwn...n ku tauk cdak da klua b4 tok p x madah aku...i juz can feel it....n btw..nmpk jwak they try to hide it...xpala..apa blh plh nak...i noe...aku tok pa jak la kan....soooo....wtv...ku tauk lama2 aku akn hlng smua yg aku ada...n skrng pun aku da ilang idup ku sndr...sdh kan....hmmm...aku arap aku pat ilang dr dunia tok..n sak ku dpt hdp dgn aman nya di tmpt ln tanpa ngaco cdak...so doakan la aku cpt pegi keh....thx for dat pray..^^...hmm...n br kjp ku klua....mem yeaaaa....dah anok aku kdk aku klua umah xplg2 smngu n kdk la aku klua tiap ari...br jak dlm 3-4 jam...i really had fun..thx for dat gals...wlaupun ada asa pelik....idk y..p i noe ada somethg....hmmm....idk wat to say.....ku asa sdh lalu jak....hmm....n aku blame mem yea 4 evrythg...nya arap aku kat umah jak kdk nya...aku mok idup kdk org lainnnn...ne ku thn mcm tokkk.....br jak aku klua kjp da gya...hmmm....cibey lalu jak baahhhhh...xlama jd gla aku knk daktok..preassure study n kt rmh.....uh...bgs mati jak kan....em...arghh..ku xda ssiapa k ku luahkan..so dear blog....tok la 1-1 nya yg blh ku buat...:(
hmm...nangis pun dpn lptp..nang bna la hdp ku tok sorg tok jak....pathetic..~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe...

hola...i noe i didnt post for a week..as i said b4...my timtable is pack..n i hv lotssssss of things n aassigment to do....zzzz..**tired**...i guess today post is goin to be a lot of thing...n a very long post..unless suddenly i dun feel like blogging...^^

hmm...diz week....there's a lott of thing i nid to do..n hell...im so blur bout my assigment...i ody get my company..juz dat i duno how n where to start my report....*DAMN* i start to hate degree life oo..i hope i can throw away dat feeling...juz like im trying to LOVE to study at Curtin...but..hmm..still...i hate to be there...read my lips..i hate it..dat is not wat i wan...i dont wan to be there...!!~!!!...arghhh....i feel soooo lost there...ati ku bukan kat sia bah....it is somewhere elseee...*cursing alone here*...n till now...i still hardly accept the truth dat im there...grrrr.....arghhhh....luckily i pass my foundation...but i pray everyday....hope dat this sucky feeling will go away...coz i really dun wan to fail my degree n betray my promises dat i have wif my grandparents n my parents...n dat is the only reason...y i still try my best to survive there....n the reason for me to try to love that place..urghhh...*hurts*..but i still have to sturgle to be there for 2 yr plus..hmm..i hope i can stand till the end..pray for me..*_*

i noe...dat im not needed...n when im not wanted to be there..so forgive me for beeing such an annoying person i ur eyes..not wat i want either...how i wish i can turn bck...hmm...i feel soooooo,....ermmm....key..u noe how does it feel rite..hard for me to explain...i dont mind if im beeing hated...coz i dont care...(wow..statement berani mati tok)...well..i do care actually..but wat can i do...i cant change wat ppl feeellll.....i wish i could..if i hv magic or wat..i would..LOL...jahat o mun bna....arghh....bia la....apa blh buat nak...bkn cdak jak kwn aku...ada gk nok ln...nvm..nvm....better focus wif my study..B.I.S..i hate uuuuuuuuuuu......ish...i dun understand anythg...geezzzz...





lastly..i miss u....:)

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mwax...^^